The recording is the best thing that has happened to me. I put it on my car while I’m driving and it doesn’t let my mind wonder off. As time passes my mind slowly but surely is improving. Now I focus my thoughts more on my dmp through out the day, I’m becoming a better observer when my mind decides to take off and think something not to my benefit (that mind can be a sneaky one!) so I am able to stop it as soon as I do. The recording helps me a lot, whenever I have the chance to listen to it, I do. It pumps me with the motivation necessary to live everyday with gratitude and passion, and most importantly it keeps me laser focused on my dmp.
The sitting exercise for this week’s chapter in the master keys has also been my favorite, and I know it’s because I’ve been able to do this one the best out of all the previous ones. It reminds me of ping pong and basketball. I’m awesome at pingpong… so I love it. I’m not good at basketball… so I don’t like it 🙂 This sit has been that one that I’ve been able to concentrate the most without my mind wondering off in a million other directions. Obviously it’s because I’ve been training my mind to relax and stay focused for 8 weeks now, but I also think it’s because of the exercise itself. Tracing the battleship back to where it was first originated as a thought is mind blowing. Once I trace it all the way back to it’s origin I go the other way, I start from the thought and end with the battleship. Yesterday I only drifted for about 3 minutes out of the 20 that I sat. (Today I drifted for a little bit more that’s why I said yesterday)
I’m applying more the Law of Giving from the index cards, they’re sinking into my subconscious by constant repetition. From the main road you have to take a dirt road for about a mile to get to my house. I was driving on that road and I saw a lady carrying her things that she sells during the day, I felt something, but I kept going. About 30 seconds later I stopped the truck, put it in reverse, picked up the nice lady and drove her home. She just so happened to live right next to my house. She was so grateful… but who do you think felt better in the end? I saw her again and the exact same thing happened. My old blueprint was “in control” at first. So I passed her, plus I was leaving… about to get on the main road. My new and REAL blueprint took over, I put my truck in reverse, and took her home. It feels amazing to give.
So… I definitely see progress. It’s slow and miniscule, but it’s constant and steady. I’m so grateful that I’m still going! My old blueprint was fighting and fighting for me to quit and believe me it was having an effect on me, but I’m still here baby!! Let’s rock this!
These weeks are flying by!! I feel like it was only yesterday when we started and now we are approaching our end to week 7! Wow! It’s awesome how if you just keep it day by day time flies by super fast.
Anyway… week 7 has been interesting. My mind is much more calm than usual. I haven’t been able to go a full day without a single negative thought but I’ve been surprised at my calm state of mind. I had a little something happen to me last week but it’s all fixed now! So now my mind has nothing to dwell on, couple that with the fact that I’m always busy and that I’m taking one of the best courses in the world to control your thoughts (MKMMA) my mind is relaxed… and it’s awesome. I remember a few days ago being in my truck outside of the bank waiting for my dad, and that’s when it hit me that I literally wasn’t thinking. I mean obviously I was thinking, because the day you stop thinking is the day you die, but my mind wasn’t rambling like it always used to…. thinking about the past or the future. I was just in the moment, admiring what I saw with my eyes, heard with my ears, smelled with my nose, and felt with my skin, being grateful for it all. I’ve also been able to catch myself as soon as I start to think something negative in about 2 seconds or less. Here and there I let it trail off for more than 7 seconds, but the important thing is that I’m catching it, fixing it as soon as I catch it. I’m learning to become a better observer of my mind… it’s pretty cool.
Also my PPN’s keep happening in my life. I rapped for a friend about two moths ago and a few days ago he showed it to a few of my club members… as soon as I walked in they demanded I rap for them. I did so and left them with their mouth open, well at least that’s what they said 🙂 It’s amazing because when I read “I promise to manifest recognition for creative expression” I think (and feel) about just that, I see them being blown away by my abilities… and that is literally what happened! This is turning magical very quickly!
I also got the chance to talk to a 12 year old boy and I bombarded him with everything I could that would benefit him in the two hours I had him at my side. It reminded me of the Law of Giving, I dunno, the whole time I was mentoring him I would remember my index cards that I read daily. I’m also starting to give more. Whenever I feel it, I do it. And that can be as simple as starting a conversation or giving somebody a smile.
In the end… it’s been a fabulous week. I noticed my old blueprint bleed through only once, and it hasn’t appeared again, I’m excited!
Peace and Love my friends
This week has been a tricky one. I’ve had some personal situations and challenges (not problems) come up which kind of got my spirit down. No worries though that’s life, it just hasn’t been a week filled with euphoria like last week. I haven’t missed any readings or any assignments, been going strong and firm since day one. I’m not complaining really, but I was expecting it to be a week even better than last, and last week was something truly amazing. But hey that’s life right? you’re not always down and you’re not always at the very top. I once red something along the lines of “If your life is more than amazing, be afraid because the universe will hit you with something to even itself out, and when you are at a point in your life when you can’t sink any deeper… be happy because that means that things are about to get better.” Hey I don’t know if that’s true or not but it certainly popped into my mind. But hey I’m still on track and on fire!
When I saw this weeks webinar on Sunday I thought that we had to put in a lot of extra work (bring it on!) but that wasn’t the case. The poster is the best thing that has happened to me in terms of this course. I kind of contradict myself since I said last week was my best week, but with the poster I’m beginning to feel the feelings more real as I say my dmp and read my index cards while looking at my poster. Also the fact that I have it on my smart phone and I look at it every time I’m having an opinion… wow. I also put it on my wallet, on my books I’m reading, on my mkmma notebooks, everywhere I can think of.
The opinions are diminishing… they are still there but I can tell that they aren’t there as much as last week. In fact, and I swear it, I’ve caught myself listening to someone for 15 minutes and then realizing that during those 15 minutes I hadn’t formed a single opinion! Talk about progress. Still got a long way to go though because the racket is still there on a constant basis, but hey I have a constant reminder to focus either on my shapes or on my affirmations… or on just not thinking at all.
This week I also got to live one of my PPN’s… it was awesome!! My therapist here saw that I’m doing so well so I was asked to speak at rehab clinic (which I was in 2 years ago) about my experiences and what I’m doing to conquer my demons. After I spoke for an hour in front of 50 people I was asked questions by the interns, I could feel their admiration… then they wanted me to rap for them! But the Therapist who was in charge said no hahaha. So I gave them my facebook name and told them to look me up. I received loud applause and a firm handshake and thank you from all 50… after I got in my car and felt the exact same feeling as I would practice when I would say “I Promise to Manifest Recognition for Creative Expression!” It was awesome…. Maybe it was a little more intense at that moment, maybe, but it was exactly the same.
Peace and Love to all.